Friday, November 10, 2006Tantric bloggingI have been thinking about these blogs recently and wondering why I'm suddenly writing fewer of them.The contrarian in me thinks that the thrill started to be gone when my friend Tom figured out my formula. Once I'm figure-out-able, it's time to learn some new tricks. This feeling started around late August, when I started this intense sprint/marathon of activity. It wasn't so much that I was insanely busy (which I was) -- it was also that there was SO much to write about I got backed up and found that the moment I had time to write up something that had a occured to me a few days previously, there were two other ideas competing for top priority. As my grandmother would say, in her Polish accent: So much, too much. There was so much to write, so many thoughts and synchronicities. So much to do. Too much to even start. And then there's this other thing that's been needling my psyche. What's the next project going to be? It's been a year since AIJ came out. People are starting to ask: now what? And -- now that I've proven that it's possible to squeeze a book out of the thin air of an overbooked schedule -- what am I going to do next? This is what I'm afraid of. I'm afraid that the blogs have been giving me enough satisfaction that I'm sated just enough. I get my ya yas out here, sporadically but consistently enough that there's no more oomph left in me to make the words link together into a big sprawling storyline. I get to smoke these little cigarettes in a slightly euphoric post blog state JUST often enough to be happy. I'm always a huge fan of going for the gusto in any way and every way possible. But maybe I'm kind of shooting my wad here. And maybe I need to hold some of it back in order to go for the bigger bang. So I'm thinking of trying something out. Since I've been living with this concept of Going Without for way too long, I'm used to the idea. Boy, I hate this idea. But maybe Going Without with a higher goal and purpose is better than getting any old action simply to slake the thirst. Tantric blog writing. Enough to get the juices flowing -- both from a giving and receiving standpoint -- but holding back a bit and saving it for the lollapalloza finale down the line a little bit. My first thought is "man, that sucks." And the second is "Yeah, right." But maybe it's what's necessary to service the higher good. Maybe I try to save a bit on the side to work on something bigger/longer. Something we don't have to call a novel, yet, but something that may very well look like a longer piece of fiction. So let's see how it works: shorter, quicker, more frequent bursts from my keyboard. Less fleshed out, more impressionistic. Sketches. Thoughts. Moments. # posted by Katherine Doughtie Nolan @ 7:10 AM  
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