Wednesday, November 05, 2008
AwakeningThere's been a madness in the world. For the last eight years, ten years, I'm not sure when it started. It's a darkness of the soul, a despair in the collective. It's shown itself in deep polarities, bitter entrenchment, rampant immaturity, and reckless abandonment of those things that usually hold the social fabric together. Things like integrity, honesty, truth.
These words still sound foreign to us when we roll them around in our minds. As do words like faith and hope and belief. Somewhere along the way we lost the sense that these things can truly be ours once again. Somewhere along the way we lost our light.
There's been a sadness in the world. Some of us found solace in institutions like church, and party affiliation, and solid answers. Others of us found their refuge in the New York Times, and anti-depressants, and solid questions. We have all been looking for solid ground. We have all taken the path that seems best for us and for our country. This is not a time to blame or point fingers: that time is over. I think this is something that has come around as part of the cycles, like a season that turns into darkness.
Looking back, I see us all in a deep soporific shadow. It manifests in ways that are horrible and disturbing. Role models who should be adulated are besmirched and beslimed. Friendships once solid crumble away under revelation and rage. We have none of us acted honorably, consistently, with direction.
I'm not sure when it started. Was it the greed of the internet bubble in the 90's? When the game of creating a business turned from looking at the market to seducing the venture capital? Was it the ends-justifies-the-means politics of the elections of 2000 and 2004? I don't know when the dimmer started dimming, but when churches start sporting posters declaring that they are against torture, because there is actually a national debate going on about its pros and cons... it's obvious the light is out, and we've forgotten even the concept of a flickering match.
Whenever it started descending, I see the sine wave of our times crossing from light into darkness on September 11, 2001. At that point we lost our mind, in sorrow and grief and rage, and started operating from a place of deep unconscious reactivity. Flailing about, on a personal and national level, we fought shadow demons in every corner (except, apparently, the correct one.) It was on 9/11 that we lost control, and the world could understand why even though it mourned the choices we made. And it was on November 4, 2008, that we regained control, and showed the world that our system, eventually, can correct itself.
You can only tell you've been asleep when you awaken. And today we awaken with a new leader, a new sense of freshness, and a new desire to move forward with honesty and faith. I am going to let myself believe in this country again, because it has proved - more powerfully than ever - that its concepts are solid and true. Things can change. The pendulum can swing.
There's been a madness in the world. A sadness in the world. And now it's over.
# posted by Katherine Doughtie Nolan @ 8:25 AM 1 comments